Lately I feel really drawn to working on my writing more than anything else. Things have been feeling different for me since I went to Japan. I used to be primarily focused on growing my business.
I adore helping people so when my business clients from the past come to me, I am happy to help them. But for months I haven’t been promoting many of my services as I have done in the past.
To be honest I have had some experiences which feel heavy. Years of them. Running a business can be difficult to say the least. Over the last 8 or 9 years I have gotten tired chasing something and in some ways it just doesn’t ever get caught.
Each thing I add on in terms of projects has an opportunity cost and I have been cautious about taking that on. Some times I will not be a good fit emotionally for a project but then it is already underway and I am obligated to deliver. That is the hardest.
My own writing seems essential and in the past it got squeezed out. I thought that was the “smart” business thing to do and focus on generating income, although I always fit a bit for me in.
The answer to my struggle, I realized isn’t to implement things more or listen to more business advice or push harder. The answer is to listen to myself and the spirit of what I am called to create.
This has always been my philosophy, but I am experimenting with applying it at a new level of depth.
Soon I plan to share some new ways of working with me, new ways I can be of service to you. Some are things I have been doing behind the scenes for years.
I’m going to listen to what my heart wants me to share and consider it like this space online is my little altar. I’m not filling it up with stuff just because, I am following a calling.
When I look back, these posts are like a journal of my experiences. Its always been a goal to help others but lately I have had to deconstruct it.
What I am actually serving is bigger than a client, bigger than a business. It’s a profound, ineffable source that is bigger than me, wiser than me. This is what gets me through hard times, now and always.
I’m inviting it into this space online to lead my words and lead my steps. Thank you.
