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Journal: Healing Blue Full Moon 2012

This week has been incredible. Correction: the past month has been incredible, but this week I have truly begun to heal.

I have spent most of the month on vacation. This week I returned to work. It wasn’t easy to give up the feeling of endless time. Especially the space to write, create, read, study – my passions.

That first day in the office almost made me think I couldn’t go back. I clocked eleven hours managing my wellness office. But I made it through.

After work, I relaxed by beginning a Creative Goddess course by Leonie Dawson. She began with a meditation to accept those scary parts of ourselves we fear others will see. I took a walk, and used leaves I found to paint the above picture.

The second day, I pulled a card from The Druid Plant Oracle before work. I drew Reversed Borage. (Imagine the below picture upside down or less positive in outlook.)
Borage told me that sometimes we need to hold our tongue and accept that the present situation, although difficult, may be good for us.
That day I struck up conversations with many long term clients. And that put me in a really good mood. I absolutely love to segue from small talk and really get to know people.

Suddenly, I rediscovered why I work, and why I care about my work.

My life’s purpose is to connect.

Just that understanding has caused so much healing in me. The beautiful aspect of my job is that I connect with people all over the place, and I’m good at it. And I realized this goal carries over to my writing as well. The point for me is not fame or fortune. The point is connection with like minded readers, or as John Locke puts it “the cool people.”
And like Leonie’s meditation, soul healing is a connection with the selves we have shunned. That dark and scary process of daring to be original, weird, sad, angry, opinionated, etc.
I’m still figuring out who exactly the cool people are, but I have already found some—my women’s group for instance. Usually we meet at every full moon to celebrate an archetype.
For the blue moon we focused on Chocolate. It was no joke. We made chocolate sculptures and I won a Hershey’s candle. I left FULL. On my way home I sang songs about chocolate and recorded one on a voicemail to myself.
For me I think stepping out of the distance I use to protect myself is essential to my healing. Being silly, creative and vulnerable is essential. I need to connect to others, to unconditionally love myself and my work, forgive the mistakes and give myself permission to make them. I need to connect myself to hope and love in the midst of discipline and preparation. I need to connect every potential of myself I have, the shards of my personality I have put aside in fear.

Healing is a process, but it’s happening. I’ve never felt better.

How has this summer help you heal?

This post is inspired by Jeanette Flatterud 

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 Description:

Brenna’s life isn’t the same after she discovers her unusual and mysterious heritage. In addition to being a telepath and having other paranormal Gifts, Brenna learns she has the Succubus Gift. She’s always been a good girl and isn’t comfortable seducing men, except one she really loves.

That’s just the beginning of her problems. Someone is stalking her. Then there’s the tall, dangerous woman who shadows her and hints a Goddess has linked them. And what is she going to do with a handsome, charismatic, womanizing man she knows she should avoid?

Some days a girl just wants to pull the covers over her head and stay in bed — with a willing young man of course.

Review:

This truly unique book has several things to offer:

1. A smart, attractive and kick-a** protagonist with a lot to figure out.

Brenna has battled her way from foster homes to the top of her class. Her dissertation on psychic activity is gaining attention, and she is teaching this year at John Hopkins.

When people start telling her they are long lost family and that she has some kind of gift she doesn’t want to believe them. But she has to, and once she does, she hits the ground running and takin’ names.

2. Refreshing attitudes towards gender roles and sexuality.

In a way this book is a little thought experiment–what if a woman didn’t commit to one man and instead played the field? And instead of thought of as a ‘slut’ maybe she could actually be accepted into society?

As Brenna learns more about her heritage, she comes to terms with the urges she was born with. Succubus earn respect by her community rather than being cast down.

Hey, I love some healthy escapism, and why the hell not? Guys get away with having multiple partners, so it’s about time an author went there and said, “Ladies can, too.” Sure makes a great story…

3. A complex and organized magical system.

Basically anything you can think of as “magic” or “psychic ability” has been classified into a Talent. There are 25 Talents telepaths can have. All of this are in a handy-dandy index, and are explained through the story.

Using a gift usually requires some training or things can get dangerous. I thought this was very well done, and before going into battle, Brenna gets plenty of preparation.
 

4. A hella-fast second half full of action.

While the first half of the book deals mostly with Brenna’s inner conflicts, things move quickly into action.

Because there are so many things to understand about the world of telepaths, I appreciated the change to orient myself in the first half.

Once it starts rolling though, it doesn’t stop.

5. Did I mention sexy?

If you prefer things to ‘fade to black’ then this is not the book for you. There is a lot of sex, and not all of it is with an emotional connection.
There are some really wild scenes. It’s not the sex per se it’s more the situation…
You’ll have to check this out to know more!
*Copy received for free in exchange for a review*

Read the Guest Post by B. R. Kingsolver on her inspiration for the Succubus Gift!

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Memoir: Just Kids by Patti Smith — 5 Stars

Description:

It was the summer Coltrane died, the summer of love and riots, and the summer when a chance encounter in Brooklyn led two young people on a path of art, devotion, and initiation.

Patti Smith would evolve as a poet and performer, and Robert Mapplethorpe would direct his highly provocative style toward photography. Bound in innocence and enthusiasm, they traversed the city from Coney Island to Fourty-second Street, and eventually to the celebrated round table of Max’s Kansas City, where the Andy Warhol contingent held court. In 1969, the pair set up camp at the Hotel Chelsea and soon entered a community of the famous and infamous–the influential artists of the day and the colorful fringe. It was a time of heightened awareness, when the worlds of poetry, rock and roll, art, and sexual politics were colliding and exploding.
 In this milieu, two kids made a pact to take care of each other. Scrappy, romantic, committed to create, and fueled by their mutual dreams.

Just kids begins as a love story and ends as an elegy. It serves as a salute to New York City during the late sixties and seventies and to its rich and poor, its hustlers and hellions. A true fable, it is a portrait of two young artist’ ascent, a prelude to fame and drives, they would prod and provide for one another during the hungry years.

 

Review:

I’m adding “Just Kids” by Patti Smith to my list of ‘Favorite Books EVER.” Why:

1. Patti Smith is an amazing icon, known as the Mother of Rock and Grandmom of Punk.

This book begins before she went to New York with a suitcase and dreams in her pocket. She spends her first summer in NYC sleeping in parks. Eventually she meets Robert Mapplethorpe– the muse of this book– and they team up together as friends, lovers, and partners.
Patti runs into an unbelievable number of famous people including Jimi Hendrix. This book is an incredible look into the origins of modern rock, and the cast that made that up.


2. Patti Smith writes as a touching memorial of Robert Mapplethorpe after his death from HIV.

At first Patti and Robert were friends, then they became lovers, and later, partners. Their relationship is really interesting as Robert comes to terms with his sexuality–what it means to want men sexually but to love a woman so strongly. 
There is nothing uncomplicated about their love, but it is clearly of enormous importance to Patti Smith. 
The book is filled with visual images, most of which are photographs taken by Robert.

3. Set in the turn of the sixties to the seventies, it’s remarkable how little has changed today.

Although culture began to explode with new forms of expression– rock and rock, BDSM, photography, spoken word– the context seems familiar.
Patti Smith puts into words the difficulty of being an artist in today’s world. The challenge of finding an apartment in New York, finding yourself, finding your voice when your parents would rather you find a 9 to 5. She finds the grit and the anguish lurking in the Chelsea Hotel mixed with the light of collaboration and inspiration. Robert is a social butterfly while Patti hesitates on the fringe of the 
creative society that decides ‘who’s in’ because why should she have to pander to them or anyone?
It’d be no less scary today for someone to realize they are gay, or to struggle with making a niche as an artist.

4. Patti Smith is a dreamer, a poet and a wannabe musician with blocks and no idea where she is going.

Patti’s introverted, prefers free-writing spontaneity, and spends ages trying to figure out how the hell to write a song. She has only a hand full of friends even though Robert drags her to every event he goes to. That’s not her scene, she’s the quiet type.

She’s the kind of girl someone might question is really an artist until Patti found exactly the venue she needed for her talents. She had the passion, the will and the patience to get herself there when Robert was her sole support.

I really see myself and Patti Smith as in the same boat. I’m a starting writer and I definitely know how hard it is to write songs! Introverted as well, I like the way Patti sees the world.

 I highly recommend this book for anyone who loves early Rock and Roll, poetry, photography, the Beat Generation, or the promise of New York City.

 

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How to Become a Book Reviewer

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This post is an extension of “7 Reasons to Love Reviewing Books.” 

There are many ways you can review books. Here are my methods:

1. Start with what you’ve got.

Post reviews of things you have read on Amazon.com, Goodreads.com, Facebook.com, Shelfari.com and/or a blog. 

Read the books haunting your bookshelf.

I’m sure I’m not the only one who constantly owns masses of unread books.

 

2. Look for freebies.

Check out your library website to see if you can reserve books online. When you hear of a cool book, reserve it there and pick it up later!

Target free, cheap or used books on Amazon.com, bn.com, smashwords.com, and twitter.com. There are many used copies for pennies above shipping. 

An e-reader really will pay for itself in free books. If you don’t have one, check the details of the publisher. You may be able to read ebooks on your computer.

More tips:

+ Check Amazon’s top 100 free Kindle books every day

+ Search through the thousands of free books on Smashwords
+ Keep an eye on your favorite authors. Follow their blogs and social media.
+ Add your name to a writer’s email lists and you’ll know about their books.
+ Add a bunch of authors and reviewers on twitter, and you’ll get gossip on a LOT of books. 
+ Look often. Free books on Amazon can be shortlived–if you’re not in the know, you’re missing out.
+ Search twitter hashtag #freebook and read the feed of writers(and here) I have collected  

 

3. Join a review program.

World Literary Cafe is where I started. Their forum helps reviewers and authors to connect. I’ve found many good books there.

But it’s not the only one, by far! Google “join book review team” for other opportunities.

4. Put it where people will see it.
Many reviewers have a blog, but you don’t NEED a blog. What you need to do is put it on sites people will see. Be consistent whether you use Amazon.com, Goodreads.com, Facebook.com, or Shelfari.com. You can copy and paste reviews on several sites if you want.
To really get visible, you need to join Twitter and Facebook. They are the social media giants.
Whenever you post a review, type up a little announcement, add the link and viola!
To get attention from the author, see if you can add their username on twitter (@______ ) or link to their Facebook Fan Page.
For twitter, it’s nice if you can continue to do this over time. That way you keep getting attention for all the reviews you worked hard on.

5. Contact authors for reviewer copies. 

This is easier once you have reviews to show and if you market your reviews on a social media site. 

Reviewing is a reciprocal relationship: the reader gets free books in exchange for time and consideration, the author gets word of mouth. 
Read the excerpts, understand the book. Remember that if you promise a review, you must provide it. Choose well.
Look at the author’s website for email, information about requests for copies, a contact form, or social media links. If there is no direct email or contact form, then try them politely on social media. 

Be nice. Absolutely do not leave a vicious review for an author that gave you a copy. You can be honest, but have respect.

6. Consider a blog.

I know, I know, I said you didn’t need one. But you might as well–there are so many free sites to host a blog on. I know that WordPressand Blogspotare great.
Add all your reviews! Covers make a great image for each post. I like to add a link for purchase out of respect for the author. (You can even make a supertiny bit of money with affiliate links)
Consider collaborating with a friend. Whether in person or online, teaming up can be really fun! You can choose a genre like “paranormal” or a theme like “snuggled reading with cats.”

7. Have Fun!

Blogs are a lot of fun and you can do a lot. There are tons of online events reviewers can participate in. All you have to do is hear about them on social media or on someone else’s site. Usually it’s open to everyone, but you have to sign up at the founder’s website.

Bloghops are when bloggers pick up a collective topic and provide links to other blogs. There may be a different person for each day. Make connections with other bloggers or people interested in your theme.
Readathons are challenges reviewers and readers set for themselves. You post information about the readathon and your goals. Through the set period you can update on how you’re doing.

Guest posts are a great way to get a break! Let an author write on a subject that interests you and put it on your blog. You can even ask authors or other people to do these. They’ll love the idea.
Giveaways are when authors offer you a free copy. You can set one up on Rafflecopter. Only one person will win, but you try to get as many people to enter as possible. This is easiest when paired with a (honest) good review or an author guestpost/interview. You can always give away anything you want!
Interviews are questions posed to the author. You can ask authors anything (unoffensive) you want! Set this us well in advance and make sure they have your list of questions. Pop the Q & A on your site. 
 
Blogtours are when authors are marketing a book. They visit many blogs and do a combination of different things–guest posts, interviews, giveaways, giving you the book for the review, etc. Often authors advertise that they need bloggers on social media. If you know an author is preparing to launch a book in several months, shoot them an invitation. Let them know what kind of post you are interested in.
And that wraps it up

 I hope this gives you an idea of what to do next and where you are going. Have fun! 

Please share any comments on the art of book reviewing.
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Description (From Amazon):

Deborah Harkness exploded onto the literary scene with her debut novel, A Discovery of Witches, Book One of the magical All Souls Trilogy and an international publishing phenomenon. The novel introduced Diana Bishop, Oxford scholar and reluctant witch, and the handsome geneticist and vampire Matthew Clairmont; together they found themselves at the center of a supernatural battle over an enchanted manuscript known as Ashmole 782.

Now, picking up from A Discovery of Witches’ cliffhanger ending, Shadow of Night plunges Diana and Matthew into Elizabethan London, a world of spies, subterfuge, and a coterie of Matthew’s old friends, the mysterious School of Night that includes Christopher Marlowe and Walter Raleigh. Here, Diana must locate a witch to tutor her in magic, Matthew is forced to confront a past he thought he had put to rest, and the mystery of Ashmole 782 deepens.

Deborah Harkness has crafted a gripping journey through a world of alchemy, time travel, and magical discoveries, delivering one of the most hotly anticipated novels of the season

 

Review:
All year I have been anticipating the sequel to “A Discovery of Witches.” As usual Diana Bishop is sarcastic and fascinated by history. Used to studying history through books, Diana is thrown into a new element in “Shadow of Night.” Diana and her vampire lover Matthew go back in time to 1590.
Matthew is so ancient he is already familiar with the times. Diana on the other hand must strive to conceal her odd modern ways. The witch trials brew nearby, and they face danger from many sides. Diana must quickly learn to fit in and master her powers.
While I enjoyed the first half of the book, my entertainment leveled off half way in. The book is huge at 577 pages. I cannot forsee the events of the third book, but I definitely think that a chunk of this book could be cut out. 

Page by page Shadow of Night is well written. However, the overall plot gets hidden under side trips in history. Diana and Matthew have extended adventures in England, France and Prague. This was too much for one book.

“Shadow” is peppered with famous characters: Shakespeare, Sir Walter Raleigh, Mary Sidney (the Countess of Pembroke), William Cecil, Elizabeth I, Rudolf II and more. Each location involves an elaborate cast of friends, servants, and antagonists. A historian perhaps would have an easier time of keeping this all straight, but that’s out of my ability!
Also I found this book to be a little skinny on depth. Some very important character development occurs but the other contents take away from their gravity.
I didn’t find the suspense to be as integral to this installment. Not that I wish torture on a character but it sure did make “A Discovery” compelling. I got the impression that Deborah Harkness was being too nice. Enemies made threats but few attacks on the main characters.
If you’ve been missing the characters of “Discovery” and ready for a nice thick read, then you might just love this. I recommend this highly to anyone interested in European or British history!
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Steampunk: Sept 18th Stormdancer

 
 

A DYING LAND

The Shima Imperium is verging on the brink of environmental collapse; decimated by clockwork industrialization and the machine-worshippers of the Lotus Guild. The skies are red as blood, land choked with toxic pollution, wildlife ravaged by mass extinctions.

AN IMPOSSIBLE QUEST

The hunters of the imperial court are charged by their Shōgun to capture a thunder tiger – a legendary beast, half-eagle, half-tiger. But any fool knows thunder tigers have been extinct for more than a century, and the price of failing the Shōgun is death.

A SIXTEEN YEAR OLD GIRL

Yukiko is a child of the Fox clan, possessed of a hidden gift that would see her executed by the Lotus Guild. Accompanying her father on the Shōgun’s hunt, she finds herself stranded: a young woman alone in Shima’s last wilderness, with only a furious, crippled thunder tiger for company. Even though she can hear his thoughts, even though she saved his life, all she knows for certain is he’d rather see her dead than help her.
But together, the pair will form an indomitable friendship, and rise to challenge the might of an empire.
 
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How Do You Rate Books?

Now that I’ve crossed six months of book blogging, I have to look back upon my method.

It’s difficult to assign a number to books. For one– my reviews are unbalanced. 

I tend to stop reading and skip a review for the lukewarm books. I use reviews to process what I like, and so my average is a Four Star review.

What do the numbers even mean anyway?

On Amazon and Goodreads, you are required to give a book a rating out of 5 Stars.

Amazon:

1 Star- I Hate It
2 Star- I Don’t Like It
3 Star- It’s OK
4 Star- I Like It
5 Star- I Love It

Goodreads is a tad different:

1 Star- I Didn’t Like It
2 Star- It was OK
3 Star- I liked it
4 Star- I really liked it
5 Star- It was amazing

The problem seems to be the middle.

Amazon and Goodreads differ on what exactly the middle is.

For me lukewarm feelings should belong in the middle. My three stars got enough substance to keep me reading even if I feel conflicted.

But then, why would I need two different star categories to for the books I don’t finish?

In the past I’ve split Three Stars into 3 Stars, 3.5 Stars and 3.75 Stars.

This seems a little unnecessary. It’s also confusing because my qualifications for what goes where is from my gut, not an equation.

But OK books are different than Almost There books, and oooo Really Almost There books.

I might land a book in one category only to change it later as the number system changed. I also feel like how memorable a book is may change over time.

Forget the number system then–what I need are words. That’s where you come in.

Do you think the star system is a good guide? Should the categories on Goodreads or Amazon be used?

I’ve seen several great bookbloggers with visual images for their ratings. Once I have the words, it should be pretty easy to create some icons. Some books may need adjustments.

My idea for categories are:

This Makes Me Mad (zero stars)
Couldn’t Finish (one star)
OK (two star)
Good Potential (three stars)
Good (four stars)
Great (five stars)
This Touches My Soul (more than five stars)

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Guest Post: The Women of Russell Blake

The following is a guest post by the prolific and talented Russell Blake. His book The Voynich Cypher has rated Five Stars on this site.
Those familiar with my work know me as a writer of action thrillers in the vein of Robert Ludlum and Frederick Forsyth. But I try to avoid the stereotypical protagonist common to that genre – the male ex-CIA assassin for whom this time it’s personal. My latest novel, Silver Justice features a female protagonist, as does my first release, Fatal Exchange, and my new one, scheduled for a mid-Sept release, JET. They are novels that center around women in difficult situations, taking on the world on their own terms.
The female main characters of these three novels are very different, and I thought it might be fun to contrast them.
Tess Gideon, from Fatal Exchange, is a female bike messenger with a taste for the wild side who is living an aimless existence in Manhattan, when she becomes unwittingly embroiled in a rogue nation’s counterfeiting scheme and they send a hit squad after her. Complicating matters is a serial killer who is targeting female bike messengers. It’s sort of a combination international intrigue, whodunnit and Red Dragon, but with a main character who is reluctantly plunged into circumstances that require her to leverage her familiarity with New York’s seedy underbelly in order to survive. Tess is complex, filled with contradictions, able, sexy, brave, vulnerable, and is a woman whose background in no way prepares her to go up  against the deadliest adversaries I could throw at her.
Silver Cassidy of Silver Justice couldn’t be more different. She’s a single mom FBI agent in charge of a task force that’s hunting a murderer who’s killing financial industry high rollers. Struggling to persevere in a male dominated career, she has to balance the considerable demands of her profession with the responsibilities of being a parent. Throw in a Russian mob contract on her, an ex who is battling to get custody of their daughter, a romantic life that’s complicated, to say the least, and co-workers out to slip a knife between her ribs at the first sign of weakness, and you have a woman under pressure that keeps mounting throughout the book. I envisioned a tough, no-nonsense leader who is struggling with internal demons, and who was three dimensional, avoiding any clichés or stereotypes.
JET is a third take on the female hero, but this time an ex-Mossad operative who faked her own death to get out of the game, but whose past is catching up with her as enemies from the life she thought she’d buried pursue her across the globe. Jet is her old codename, and she is a badass. Think equal parts Lizbeth Sanders, La Femme Nikita and a female Bourne. Here, I wanted a take-no-prisoners woman who was one of the most effective clandestine operatives in the world, who finds herself returned to an ugly world of kill-or-be-killed she thought was behind her, and who must take on insurmountable odds if she is to survive and protect those she loves the most. I wrote Jet as a non-stop rollercoaster, and I think the book is probably the most racing I’ve ever created.  Jet is certainly my favorite female character – lethal but human, introspective, tortured and conflicted, but capable of taking on a battalion of commandoes and being the last one standing.
As you can see, three very different women with markedly different backgrounds and skill sets in dissimilar situations. And yet all of them come alive on the page, and are vividly drawn and realistic. Part of my goal in creating them was due to a fascination with the concept of the strong female protagonist battling adversity, and I find their characters much more interesting than if I’d written the characters as male. Jet especially encapsulates so many traits that aren’t typical with a female protag that I think it makes the book more engaging.
In the end, the goal of any good fiction is to keep it interesting. These three ladies definitely do that, no question. I think it would be safe to say that these aren’t your grandmother’s heroines, and they all push the limits of the female in fiction and take the genre to a whole new level.

Russell Blake is the acclaimed author of Fatal Exchange, The Geronimo Breach, Zero Sum, The Delphi Chronicletrilogy, Night of the Assassin, King of Swords, Revenge of the Assassin, Return of the Assassin, The Voynich Cypher, An Angel With Fur, How To Sell A Gazillion eBooks In No Time (even if drunk, high or incarcerated), Silver Justice and coming in September, JET. He lives on the Pacific coast of Mexico and enjoys his dogs, writing, tequila and battling world domination by clowns. His thoughts, such as they are, can be found at his blog.

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See below for your chance to win Steven Katriel’s new novella, “The Portrait of Alatiel Salazar.” The end date has been changed to August 31st.


We shall begin with an excerpt and the giveaway is further down the page.  Beyond is a description of the book and links to the rest of this book tour
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Please note: the preview chapters on this website are not in chronological order.

Camden Town, 1880
This is my voice. You cannot hear me, but I hope you will read my thoughts…
 
The only sign of life he found in the broken and windswept house was one of death, the empty frame of a body, borne on a cradle of bloodstained paper. The intruder took another page from the dishevelled bed, and continued to read Helena Graham’s journal:
I will endeavour to record everything – every word, each thought and action; such is the hateful gift of insight Alatiel has forced upon me. To my regret, I am certain she will take her turn to relate our story, smiling to herself all the while, secure in her wretched vanity and the knowledge that the chances of this journal being found are slim. And besides, she may just cast these pages into the fire and all my words will have been in vain. That would amuse her, I imagine…if indeed she is capable of such a human trait.
 
She will use my mind, my body, the hands of a writer, to set down this tale. I hope against hope that someone discovers my journal and, having read it, fashions a way to destroy Alatiel, even if this action means the loss of what was once my life.
Spring
I‘ve found her!” Julian Paradine said. Those were his very words. But truth be told, Alatiel found him, marked him out; well, she left her mark on poor Julian…on all of us, in fact.
We sat outside a small café on Thurzon Street, the men daydreaming, no doubt, that they were kindred souls of the Parisian Bohemians we had all read about; I, the token female in this circle of art lovers, admitted only by virtue of my writing pastime and of course, because of my brother Matthew’s presence. Although our parents had passed on, keeping company with these harmless ‘radicals’ would have been unthinkable were it not for Matthew.
Julian alone had actually been to Paris, but then, he was the only one amongst us whose career was in the ascendant; his crowd-pleasing paintings were beginning to be noticed by the Academy, no less. We were happy to follow his lead in so many things…
 
He pulled away from our table, took the girl roughly by the arm and pushed her forward. She appeared to glide, or float, towards us, and even when the cause of her strange and somewhat comical motion came into view, the eerie effect remained. The girl gave the impression of perfect control – of herself and of events – although seemingly at the whim of her master. She did not stir, did not blush as one might expect.
 
With his usual carefree, infectious enthusiasm – the joie de vivre which so endeared him to us – Julian presented his new plaything for closer inspection. Or perhaps that should be ‘delectation’; Matthew’s mouth fell open and he gazed in wonderment. However, the poet Callum Flynn flinched as though he’d been struck. He raised himself, made no attempt at excuses and simply murmured “I must go,”; he’d always impressed me as a strange man, all the more now. Gabriel Holland too stood up suddenly, and backed away as if afraid. We were perplexed and concerned, at first, then gave free rein to our merriment once Flynn and Holland had disappeared. The remaining men resumed their scrutiny of the girl, in that concentrated, trepidatious and thoroughly silly way which is the hallmark of their sex. I, of course, could stare freely at her, with no such pretence or man-made restriction.
Certainly, she was beautiful, but in a strangely bland, indistinct way – not unlike an elder sister of Mr Carroll’s ‘Alice’, I thought. Her complexion was simply too pale, as though iced water slithered through her thin veins, and her ash blonde hair had none of the lustre of true health.
Julian held the girl by her shoulders, and addressed us again:
“Well actually, Cristian Salazar found her, or rather, he bought her. Made a gift of her to me. She is perfect, isn’t she?” he looked at each of us in turn, soliciting agreement. “Say hello to Alatiel.”
 
They greeted her respectfully enough, I suppose, though Daniele Navarro made a show of slowly raising his hat, a display of ironic homage unworthy of him, I thought. Perhaps I was mistaken and this was the closest thing to chivalry he could muster. Matthew stuttered a few indecipherable words, such was his amusing shyness. The girl remained silent and still. Julian Paradine stood apart from her now.
“Ah, my apologies, gentlemen – and Helena, of course – I should have mentioned that Alatiel is a mute…or at least, she claims she is.”
 
I felt rather ashamed as the others laughed at the girl’s expense.
“‘Alatiel’…that seems familiar to me, as if it were from a book I read many years ago.”
“She has no name, Daniele,” Julian said, “so I chose one for her. I have invented her, you might say.”
“I thought you had broken with Salazar, Julian? Are you so easily bought?” Navarro teased.
“Now, now, my friend, you know I never compromise in matters of art. As you’re no doubt aware, I paint those dreary society stalwarts and their charming cherubs solely because of the challenge to my technique; not for the few pennies their parents bestow upon me…” At that precise moment, Julian pretended to consult his gold pocket watch, and turned it around until the sun’s rays glanced off its ornate cover. We laughed at his playful self-mockery. Julian’s smile faded a little as he glanced at Alatiel’s blank expression.
“Anyhow, the scoundrel made me a peace offering. Said he bought her for a sovereign, from some old crone in the East End; a lie, no doubt.”
I spoke up, and every head turned my way.
“Surely no mother would ever sell her child?”
 
Julian became serious, for once, his voice almost plaintive.
“My dear Helena, even a mother’s love has its price…especially in the places Salazar haunts.”
 
The mood had darkened, and Julian attempted to lift the gloom once more by making a show of choosing which of his friends would be the first to make use of Alatiel. You see, this was how they worked – I had witnessed it a few times before now – one of the circle would find a ‘stunner’ amongst the city’s waifs and strays and they’d pass her along between them, like a mysterious parcel excited children long to unwrap at birthday parties. Soon enough, they would tire of the game and this fascination with the more decorative poor would pass. Granted, they only used the young women as subject or inspiration for painting and poetry – at least that is what I, in my innocence, believed – but afterwards the unfortunates were dismissed with a few coins and they would return to their miserable, poverty-stricken lives. I had never been struck by this heartlessness until that day.
Perhaps my sentimental, self-indulgent empathy was wasted on this particular unfortunate; as I tried to look upon Alatiel’s countenance again, sunlight drained the little colour her skin possessed and made her appear featureless, somehow. But my obvious unease did not concern her and instead she turned to face her captive audience. In that instant, I imagined I saw her, not as she really was, but as she appeared to them: Alatiel was the mirror in which they saw themselves. She would be whatever her admirers wanted her to be.
Then, the spell was broken as Julian’s raised voice ended my reverie. He spoke winningly enough but his words were wasted on the others. Finally, with good-humoured mock protests hanging in the air, he allowed Daniele Navarro to lead her away. Alatiel looked back – just once – and perhaps she saw us as we really were: Julian, troubled or guilt-ridden; Matthew, looking for all the world as if he were in love; and I, betrayed by my own face, the shameless fascination I displayed for her imperious majesty.

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Check out this review from Robert Zimmerman:

“When I met Alatiel for the first time, I didn’t know what to think. I just knew with her presence came trouble. I was right. The horror left in her wake is painted beautifully and unexpected. These moments were some of my favorite in the whole piece. This skill along with Steven’s ability to set up the scene in my mind lead to a feeling that I was in the story. I could see everything as it was happening, vividly.

This novella has surpassed my expectations in story and writing style. For this it has jumped high on my list of great books. This is an especially tough accomplishment considering it’s a novella. In around 21,000 words, it has changed the way I view the horror genre, and novella’s in general.”

About The Portrait of Alatiel Salazar

When Gabriel Holland’s beloved Helena vanishes from his life, he journeys to the home of disgraced artist Cristian Salazar, the man he holds responsible for her disappearance and the death of several friends. 

Once in Carliton, Gabriel finds malice and mystery in the tales told by the few brave enough to speak ill of Salazar and the sinister Cousin Beatriz. And within shadows, in the guise of night, walks Alatiel, the creature Helena has become.

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August 20, 2012
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August 22, 2012
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August 23, 2012
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August 24, 2012
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August 27, 2012
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August 28, 2012
Masquerade Crew
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August 29, 2012
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August 30, 2012
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August 31, 2012
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Hannah Payne’s life has been devoted to church and family, but after her arrest, she awakens to a nightmare: she is lying on a table in a bare room, covered only by a paper gown, with cameras broadcasting her every move to millions at home, for whom observing new Chromes—criminals whose skin color has been genetically altered to match the class of their crime—is a new and sinister form of entertainment. Hannah is a Red; her crime is murder. The victim, according to the State of Texas, was her unborn child, and Hannah is determined to protect the identity of the father, a public figure with whom she’s shared a fierce and forbidden love.??
 
When She Woke is a fable about a stigmatized woman struggling to navigate an America of a not-too-distant future—where the line between church and state has been eradicated and convicted felons are no longer imprisoned and rehabilitated but chromed and released back into the population to survive as best they can. In seeking a path to safety in an alien and hostile world, Hannah unknowingly embarks on a path of self-discovery that forces her to question the values she once held true and the righteousness of a country that politicizes faith.

 

Review:

I read this book some time ago in 2011. A year later it’s still on my mind and I just had to write a review.

This feminist and suspenseful novel includes similar themes to Margaret Atwood’s “The Handmaid’s Tale” and the classic “Scarlet Letter.”
In Hillary Jordan’s world, power is held by religious conservatives. Criminals are forced to submit to coloration of their skin for all to see and to judge. Different hues of Chromes exist so that the populace can tell who has done violent crime and who had an abortion, etc. This new punishment eliminates the need for prisons in favor of public disapproval.
Hannah Payne never thought she would live a life like this. She went to church regularly with her family, she dressed modestly, she never had a boyfriend…until she fell in love with a man too high profile to admit he fathered her child. Her only childhood sin was making fabulous clothing that could never leave her closet. Hannah had thought herself content.
But now she’s a sinner. An adulteress. A murderer of an unborn child. Hannah’s family abandons her and she has nothing to her name. Her only hope is to entrust her fate to a faceless organization similar to the Underground Railroad. Her goal is to reach Canada, but she lives in constant fear with no one to trust.
“When She Woke” is an incredibly emotional novel. Hannah begins with such innocence, but she has to protect herself and survive. She sheds the morality forced upon her bit by bit until by the end, she isn’t ashamed to be Red. 
I really enjoyed this novel. I appreciated the moral ambiguity of pretty much every character. Is it right for Hannah’s family to abandon her? For her sister to cling to her bigoted husband and put Hannah out? Is it right for Hannah to still dream of her former lover? Is it right for the members of the Underground Railroad to silence anyone who might betray them? 

Very tight, very intense, very memorable. Loved it!

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