๐ฆ ๐ ๐ฟ A light in the darkness
I have cried through a million tissues, been angry, felt like exploding, and other a lot of nasty stuff.
Losing my father, the only parent I’ve had my whole life, in 2021 and officially being an orphan at the young age of 34,
was absolutely horrible.
But I am a fighter. I found the power, the ferocity to say:
๐๐๐ฝ๐๐ผ I am here to live. I will make use of the life I have. I will survive and I will thrive.
Full stop.
๐ฅ I will make art. I will find beauty.
๐ฅ I WILL EXIST.
Damn if I will not live!
I began to pound on the glass of my cage, shouting damn if I will not live!
Out of my grief, out of ptsd, out of the worst possible feelings that wanted to suck me dry and take me down so I never wanted to wake up in the morning, I chose this.
I chose this.
๐ฅ To live. Again and again and again I chose it over and over because it took so long for anything to really feel any easier.
My wedding wasnโt easy. The quote happiest day of my life was tinged with sadness that I lost my dad.
So many moments have been hard instead of happy. Days and years I canโt get back, like water I just had to tread.
If you think Iโm someone who has always had an easy life then you donโt know the truth about me at all.
๐ฅ And if you’re struggling with loss right now, I’m speaking to you: you can do this.
Just keep fighting you guys
To reach from the edge of the cliff to the security of grounded land.
๐ฟ If you are feeling bad
Please remember:
You are needed here.
Stay with us, keep shining.
Even if no one else sees and your light is just for you.
๐ Feel free to retreat into yourself if you need to,
Goodness knows I did.
Many of the words above are ones I wrote over the last few years that I keep coming back to.
I kept them private for a long time. I just was not ready to hear anyone’s thought on it yet, although I am happy to receive thoughts on it now.
Retreating into my words means no one can see me in my vulnerable, tender times. It helps me cope.
Private space is gorgeous and safe.
Remember that those are available to you.
Do whatever you need to take care of yourself.
If you need to feel or grieve or rest, please prioritize that.
๐ฆ But no matter how long being in a dark place goes on,
(I have been there when the night was so so long)
one day I hope something changes.
What I mean is your mood shifts
It can happen any day or time.
And the light shines out of the clouds for you, if only for a moment.
Bask in that moment, and stay curious.
When will it come again?
And what can I do to create more moments like these?
๐ฟ What I have learned from facing my own internal darkness in my life is
We have to meet the gap.
We have to cling on to light and life and our fire.
FUEL YOUR FIRE.
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From one tender soul to the next
xoxoxox
๐ฆ ๐ ๐ฟ Are you feeling
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