What have I learned through 30 days of conscious self forgiveness?
In October I found myself in a session with a dear client and friend recommending something so radical I couldn’t believe it. I recommended a 30 Day Self Forgiveness Cleanse using a method I have created.
I ran this challenge myself during a really hard time a few months before, to great effect. It was when I was turning 28 in August and I was feeling really down. I’d say I felt like utter shit lol. All these emotions were coming up bringing me to tears even, despite an outpouring of love from everyone around me and online. I guess I felt a little disconnected in real life since I recently moved a distance away from my friends and only had a small local community. I also wished my business was performing better and that editing would go faster on my book From Doormat to Dominance and Beyond.
It was really hard, and one day my teacher Margaret Lynch taught me to use a tool called EFT to release unforgiveness towards myself. It turns out it wasn’t just a conscious decision to stop beating myself up for my supposed failures–I had to physically release the pain and suffering from my body because a part of me was holding onto it for dear life.
After that in August I spent almost every day finding new things to forgive myself for and release. I started to feel so much better until one day I had a spiritual experience of feeling so utterly connected and loved by the universal force that runs through all things. It was an ecstatic afternoon on the beach and I am grateful for that moment when I realized I had been innocent all along.
I think we all need to stop crucifying ourselves. I recommend the 30 day forgiveness cleanse, and because I never recommend anything that I wouldn’t do myself, I took it on again in November and invited others for the ride.
Now that the 30 days is over, I can tell you, yes honestly I am a little tired of forgiving myself, and having to—what is it about my psychology that requires me to hold on to the energy of the past to learn from my mistakes. I know how to write things down. I don’t hold onto the energy of the American Revolution for instance to know that it occurred and to avoid the mistakes of my forefathers. Somehow when it’s me, I feel responsible and like I have to punish myself for my mistakes forever.
And it’s not ME doing this–not the conscious me walking around living my life. It’s the under the surface me, the survival me, the crafty me. And this is something shared by a lot of my clients–there is a part of us that gets in the way of feeling happy because of past events.
The energy released with self forgiveness work is incredible. Forget about forgiving other people for a second and focus on yourself. As you let go of the past you will have what you need to create something new.
Let me say: I’m not the best at business. But my business doesn’t need me to be. Neither does my book need me to be the best writer ever, or the Tarot need me to read the cards the best. They know what they want me to say and do. They already have plans and it’s my job to listen to them. When I am beating myself up I’m not listening, I’m not following, I’m stuck in my head going in circles.
When the universe has plans for us to achieve our dreams it lays steps out. It starts downloading into our mind one bite and nibble at a time. We have to trust ourself to take action on our inspirations and unforgiveness gets in the way.
I invite you to forgive yourself. Maybe you don’t know what for—it’s easy. Start with not having what you want to have, not doing what you want to do. Something in your field, body, mind or soul is preventing you from channeling that inspiration from Source and channeling it into action. Something is hanging on that is preventing you from attracting your next move right to you. Then the next day try the opposite–forgive yourself for getting what you want. You might be surprised what becomes clear to you.
I can help you do this if you like. You can contact me. We can talk, I can make recommendations of where to start or go next. But I’m really really a proponent of this forgiveness work. It’s incredible.
I believe we have the ability to create anything we desire and if it is not happening we need to start with forgiving ourself. If it is in our power on some level than we need to forgive our humanity for having anything to stand in the way. Maybe we inherited, maybe it’s from our culture or a past life, or just this one. And maybe it was a crappy thing that happened or that we did. But it doesn’t help us to hang on emotionally because then we can’t see any new possibilities.
Doom is the feeling that nothing is possible for us. And the healing forgiviness can release it, can allow us to let go of this disempowering energy and instead be open to following our source where ever it needs us to go–humbly, and with patience rather than expectation, but it’s all going to be ok. Just forgive. You’ll feel a lot better.
Sending love Sofia Wren
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