Going through a hard time? Difficult emotions are hard—but the only way out is through. You can’t suppress all your emotions and expect to escape them, you have to feel them.

Believe it or not, feelings are part of the pathway to access your true power.

But do you really feel free to access your emotions? Do you feel safe? Have you made the time? No one wants to feel too emotional or too sensitive. And no one wants to get overwhelmed by it.

But what if there is a way to honor how you feel but also come out of it stronger than ever. Powerful!

Not only is it ok to feel what you are feeling but that it is an essential step in feeling your true power. 

This meditation for women will help you to feel safe to feel everything you do. It will take the cut out of whatever has happened in the past to make you feel emotional now.

From there you will connect to your true power. You’ll feel more connected to your highest and best self so you can feel stronger, more balanced and know what to do next.

Download it or listen here.

Here is a transcript so that you know what to expect if you just want to tune out and listen.

Taking a deep breath, release it with a sigh.

Take a deep breath, counting in for four

Holding for four

Releasing for four

Keep breathing

Breathing in for four

Hold for four

Out for four

As you breathe slowly, you decide in this moment to take this time for yourself. You allow everything else to dissipate from your mind as you hear the words and feel the energy.

Everything else in your life is reducing into the background more and more, as you focus on this very important message:

It’s okay to feel whatever you are feeling. It’s normal and I love you. Even if you don’t know what to do to make this feeling go away and resolve. It is okay to be here and let go.

You find yourself on an ocean front. You can see the glittering waves and hear them crash upon the shore. Your skin and clothes are lightly misted by the next wave, and you turn to walk along the shoreline, the water just missing your toes or curling over your feet a bit here and there.

You feel the sand pressing under your feet. You love the way the indentations look every step you make. It makes you feel accomplished, to know that you matter, that you are here, that you deserve to be here.

And then behind you, the larger waves wipe some parts of your footprints away. It makes you feel calm. It makes you feel like every moment is a clean and fresh opportunity. You can make new choices, and take a new direction.

You feel like a goddess as you walk along the shore. Powerful. Present. Grounded. You feel your power running through you.

You know that beneath the surface of your emotional waters are things you haven’t had time to resolve. You haven’t had time to make all the feelings go away. There are things to do that are hanging over your head. There are goals that you want to accomplish. There are improvements in your life you want to make or inside of yourself. There are people to forgive that you still have feelings about. Or situations.

There are things outside of your control. People you wish had a better opinion of you. People you wish were buying your services or reading your books. People that you could trust more, but who have failed to meet your expectations. Losses you have sustained or that you anticipate happening in the future. It’s okay. You are allowed to have all of these feelings.

There are things that scare you. Things that you don’t want to happen in your life. As you watch a whirlpool of water collect in the shoreline, in a tiny dip, you think about the fears you have for yourself, your future and for the world. You don’t really know what to do about these things, but sometimes you think about it a lot, about what you could possibly do, or you just feel all the angst and anxiety.

You think about the past sometimes, the things that still hurt, the things and parts of you that are still messy, unsure, and vulnerable. Sometimes you feel so different it hurts.

You let go. You know what you want to do. You want to raise your arms and call in the Goddess within you. You want to be connected to a higher power, the stuff at work that knows exactly what to do at any time. The part of you that is so apparent to the divine creator, the part that is real, the part that the real sees beyond time and space.

It has a special feeling to it, which you feel now as you plant your feet in the ground as the waves bubble and move around them. You raise your arms in a v into the sky and raise your chin. The moon is hanging in the air even though it is still day time, and you feel a space beyond time and space, a space inside of yourself that is waiting to be called, waiting to call out to you.

It has a pain that it wants to shout, but you have been afraid to feel it in case you just can never stop feeling the pain once you get started. You don’t want to be that way, it makes you feel powerless to feel these feelings and emotions that want to surface, to think these thoughts. But by suppressing them, you suppress your power. They want to come to the surface. They want to arise now. They want to arise. They want to arise.

And so they do. As you let go and allow the goddess to lift from you all of these emotions and in order to do that you have to experience them, feel them, know them, through and through, until they are all gone, until you have touched the bottom of this inner ocean. Only then can you rise to the crest of the wave.

Feel them now. These emotions that have been pressed down within you. Feel them now, these parts of you which have been chained. No longer will any chains bind you, for propriety, for control, for wisdom. Now you see the wisdom of feeling this feeling. THIS feeling is powerful.

THIS feeling is your teacher.

THIS feeling is who you are.

THIS feeling is all that you need.

THIS feeling is the Goddess working within you.

And you surrender. And you feel.

—Time goes on. Time goes on and the feeling begins to shift.

It deepens and it changes, like a chameleon. A shapeshifter.

And as it changes, you continue to feel it as deeply as possible, touching the bottom of the wave. Touching the bottom of the ocean inside of you and you make space for yourself, and you love yourself.

Pause

You know how powerful you are. As you feel these rich feelings you forgive yourself, all of yourself, all of the parts of you you feel like could have done better. You feel real, you feel a depth that you have not had before.

You realize how superficially you were living in all of the days before to avoid this emotion.

You have been stripped bare, like the footsteps destroyed by the waves, replaced by the expanse of flat smooth sand. You love the way this looks when you see it, and you love the smooth way you are beginning to feel inside. 

Even if you can’t eliminate the feeling, you have come at peace with it. It has become your friend.

It’s not about control. You let go of controlling your feeling. You are all too good at that. That is too masculine and it blocks the goddess sometimes, so you surrender it all to her, you place it on her altar. And now you shine.

As she fills you with her divine light. You are a lightning rod for her presence to fill every gap inside of yourself. She nourishes all of your inner needs. She sees the beauty inside of you, she kisses every part of you that feels difficult to bare. She breathes the breath of beauty and richness over every feeling that feels ugly and in need of correction. You see the rightness of everything you are, the divine perfection, in its current state, unchanging except for a subtle change: a vibration she is adding to heal everything about you, to help you to realize that you are She, just as you are, right now, you are She.

You are the one who has arisen.

You are the one who is wanted. Just as you are.

You are ready. You are ready for the future.

You are ready for the present.

All the challenges before you become insignificant because you understand the real task is to stay in this energy as much as possible. To weave the magic of the Goddess into your everyday life and into every emotion that you have so that you feel good, so that you feel better, like your best self.

And you don’t dismiss your feelings, you rise them up, you honor them, they are the work of THE GODDESS and you are proud and lift yourself up as you bear them and feel them and own them and LOVE them.

You are the goddess feeling emotions and you are strong.

You see the light of the moon and feel touched. You see the light of the sun in the sky and know it is all around you. You are a beloved child, but today you rise like Venus from the waves, reaching higher, more lofty, dancing into the stars with the clouds at your feet like beautiful bracelets, you are the Goddess on high, you are the queen of the heavens and the night.

As you begin to wake from hypnosis in a few moments you will carry all of these powerful divine vibrations with you. You will begin to shine and be even more powerful than ever. You will be everything you have every wanted to be right now in yourself as you are.

You have everything you need as you begin to complete this hypnosis. No longer do you feel incomplete, even feeling your emotions. You feel strong even as you are vulnerable. You know this is true strength. You no longer waste energy suppressing different parts of yourself that are trying to heal you and help you to claim your power. You are separate from your parents and all who have tried to control or guide you in the past. You surrender this control and authority in the arms of the goddess and you are free, free to feel, free to experience and through that you find the path to your true purpose: to feel pleasure, to feel power, to RECEIVE

It all starts with emotion. It starts with emptying. It starts with acceptance and love.

And so it is

You are now going to wake from hypnosis by counting to ten. When you reach the number ten, you’ll emerge from hypnosis feeling refreshed and ready to either go to sleep soundly, or face your day easily and without anxiety. You’ll always know what to do next because you are feeling your feelings and following your soul call.

You feel special in a way that only you can. You are grateful for the flexibility you have taken so that you can be of service to others, in addition to your own soul. You know these things go together.

Now that you have gone on this journey, You radiate more of the power that you truly are and always will be. Everyone notices and sees you for all that you are, including your gifts, because you ooze divine power and magic. You will feel safe to be ignored when you want to, and will be able to share what you want to share with the right people. All will be well. 

Thank you for being the vessel for all of these powerful emotions. Through this work you are making the world a better place.

As you step away from the shoreline, you begin to remember that you are in a hypnosis experience. Slowly you come back into everyday consciousness, taking with you all that you have learned and experienced through this transformative energy.

“One… starting to come out of hypnosis now.”
“Two… feeling safe, calm and comfortable.”
“Three… even more alert and at peace with yourself.”
“Four… You’re becoming aware of your surroundings now.”
“Five… You can feel everything coming back to you.”
“Six… You feel extremely relaxed. So peaceful, so complete.”
“Seven… You’re beginning to realize where you are.” 

“Eight… You’ll keep this wonderful feeling after you rouse yourself from this hypnosis.” 

“Nine… almost fully aware and out of the hypnosis, and ready to feel amazing.” 

“Ten… You’re back. You’re now fully aware of your surroundings and ready for anything.” 

As a celebration of the end of the year, and to help get ready for 2020, the start of a new decade and chapter, I’m offering a special.

Supercharge your path towards the things that really matter to YOU:

–Clear out overwhelm, uncomfortable emotions, and the stuff from the past (which can totally get you bogged down and misdirect your energy)

–Get creative and in touch with your real gifts and power to create the life you want.

–Get clear on your real priorities and next steps that feel really good.

–End procrastination and get closer to your truth so you can take those next steps with confidence.

What this is not:

-An intuitive reading where I do all of the talking

-A session to vent where you do all the talking

-A session where we make lists of goals or bucket lists

This is not a place for you to just think or talk and avoid your feelings!

What this is:

A collaborative, healing session which may include times of silence to listen deeply inside for answers or messages.

You will work with me to craft the plan for your life. I will ask questions, offer tools and support.

You will be invited to really feel and connect to your intuition for answers. I am pulling aspects of you to be front and center instead of in the background. You have the answers! I’m here to connect you to them.

We will be together so the scariest, hard emotions coming up are totally okay to show up! No judgment. Let’s say they are perfect messengers of exactly what needs to happen next so they are given a place of honor. This is your power coming up to be seen, girlfriend. I wanna dive in with you.

What can happen:

You may end up releasing what you thought your plan for 2020 was. You may find your goals do not come from an authentic place.

You may find that what you were struggling to do is actually not something you need to do.

You may find yourself pivoting into an entirely new direction that you hadn’t considered before. But it really works for you and it feels a lot better.

You may realize that there is something you need to work out on the inside–you hadn’t realized it is the real heart of the matter for you right now! Wowzers! Holy hell, that can save you a LOT of time–like years. Thank goodness you know now, right?

What no one is saying about new year goals (and it drives me bonkers):

When making goals, we can use the dream of external things to plug up a feeling inside.

For example, if I don’t feel like I’m enough inside, sometimes I try to achieve something to prove I am enough, but later I find that no achievement ever really fills that void. I can waste a lot of time that way, seeking something that doesn’t actually do the trick.

What works is going into the feeling and addressing that instead.

I will help you to go faster by actually shifting the feelings themselves through refusing to avoid them as they are right now! Awareness in a safe container is powerful. Then you can make progress on things that actually matter to your soul.

I help you get under the surface so you can find what really matters and know what to do next from an authentic place.

Does this sound crazy? It actually works!

Check out these examples of real-life client situations:

-One musical client discovered in a session with me that she had a fear of not coming off as professional. That was what was really blocking her. It was getting her circling and not moving her music ahead, despite all her organic talent. Later she found a way to get a master’s in music for free! And now she’s doing regular gigs like a pro! I love this.

-Another client worked on healing money blocks with me. We found and released old family teachings that taught her to be practical and pinch pennies. She didn’t want that funky poverty energy running anymore. She ended up finding a way to retire her job as a lawyer, come out with her spiritual name, and allowed herself to pay people to help her get her bestselling book out! Talk about freedom to invest in herself and live her truth! Freaking go, girl.

-A third client was struggling to pick between a few guys she was dating. In our session, she tuned into her heart, realized none of them were the one, and she got clear on everything she wanted. I asked her if she could have anything, what did she actually want. She said a man who spoils her and some other traits. What is being spoiled look like for her? Well, she really did meet this man. They fell in love and I got to go to the wedding–or one of them. She actually had three weddings and at least four gorgeous wedding dresses. I’d say she got her dream.

Let’s give you a Creative Reboot for the New Year!

Get a 45-minute session for $80.

Contact me to book your spot.

Available until 1/1/2020

A lot of people have a dream about writing a book one day when they have infinite time, or are on vacation, or are retired.
It’s a nice thought but I don’t buy it.

Firstly, I find the more time I have, the easier it is to put things off until later. You will still have time later right?

Relax! Have a marg. You can write this afternoon when you are rested. Or tomorrow to start fresh, or hey this week is filling up and you don’t want to be stressed, how about next Monday? Oops Monday you sleep in and have to race to go surfing while the waves are good. Or you are too sad that you are lonely and your life sucks.

There’s always something.

Whatever my current complaint is, I remember that in the past there was some other thing going on. I’d think, “When this settles down then I can put focus on my writing.” And then it settles and: There is always something else.

I try to remind myself of this so I can appreciate the present opportunity I have to just do it anyway!!! Writing is ultimately for ME. I feel good when I do it and I make my energy make with interest from being fulfilled by it.

That being said, if you are literally limiting a multitude of things from your life that you would normally say yes to because you are really that swamped…then yeah maybe you are really too busy. You have a reason.

But if you are managing to juggle everything else decently…you can probably find time to do stuff.

Unless you just have to admit…it’s not that you can’t right now. You just don’t want to. And that’s ok, too.

Just don’t lie to yourself.

Here’s your message for faster progress and consistent inspiration so you always know what to do and create next.

I pulled The Judgement, as well as Ten of Pentacles. This feels accurate for the year ahead, 2020.

This excerpt may be used in my forthcoming book for interpreting the whole Tarot deck. Take a moment to be open to any positive shifts that may occur as you read this sacred writing and remember to breathe.

The time is now: see things from a higher perspective and tap into abundance and growth. The cards I pulled this month, Judgement and 10 of Pentacles, will be resonating for all of 2020.

We are promised the experience of abundance: love, harmony, effortless expansion, fulfilment, hope, and wholeness. The pathway to this experience is one guided by a higher consciousness, detached from worldly expectations and concerns.

Generally, the word ‘judgement’ has a punitive connotation. some things either suitable or unsuitable, good or bad, worthy or not. This judgement is actually a call to a higher consciousness that provides a different perspective to the every day.

Have you ever noticed how you feel also affects your thoughts and perceptions? Follow and cultivate the energy of higher consciousness, and select energies to heal and guide you even when your logical mind would have you focus on other things. This will lead you to a true abundance, rather than an impoverished spirit.

You must be willing to see yourself in a new way and defy expectations. Stop looking to others to give to you, and instead believe in yourself. This is all serving you, to help you, to be more.

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Stuff has been coming from the past. Old feelings of not being seen. When I listened in … I learned a lot.

I thought that if I was performing, applauded, visible, that I would satisfy the root cause of the feeling and it would go away or change. Nope.

What it was really about was not being seen. It was about feeling beautiful, just for me. ❤️ Yay.

Here’s your message for faster progress and consistent inspiration so you always know what to do and create next. I pulled The Four of Pentacles Reversed, as well as the Page of Wands, for the next month.

This is an excerpt from my forthcoming book of interpretations for the whole Tarot deck. Take a moment to be open to any positive shifts that may occur as you read this sacred writing and remember to breathe.

Keywords for 4 of Pentacles Reversed: Insecurity, Not Enough, Low Resources, Doubt, Idle Activity, Insecurity, Lack of Grounding

Keywords for Page of Wands: Inspiration, Channeling, New Ideas, Messengers, Writing, Singing, Acting, Organic Creation, New Starts, Beginnings

Our insecurities can lead us to find new inspiration this month.

Four of Pentacles Reversed encapsulates all our feelings and fears of not being enough, having enough and doing enough. Rather than repressing or suppressing these fears, get in tune with them. Take care of your deeper needs. Eliminate a reliance on outside stimulation and distraction from the core place these things come from. Sometimes we try to fix or change our situation rather than observing the root of our distress or discomfort.

You may find that connecting to yourself in a deeper way will allow you to find new inspiration for your creative projects. Page of Wands is a fresh wave of creative energy and ideas.

You may receive or give an important message that adds new sparks, perspectives or elements to the creative stew. It is a time of new beginnings and endeavors. When you are in the zone, you feel clear on what needs to be done and you have the impetus to do it immediately, even if it is something new and different.

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In a way that honors your soul?

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Why create? Is it to get famous? Make a million dollars? Change the world?

All of these are external reasons for creating. Personally, I think they time out.
When your focus is on something deeper like using it as a way to express self love, you will always be successful at your intention.

What I mean is, I’ve been doing this for a while now. I began writing in earnest over ten years ago, had a business almost that long, and singing for five years.

You can look around and see a lot of people who haven’t made it to the level of stardom and infinite impact. I’m not there yet. You can meet people with crazy talent who haven’t made any money at it. Why bother doing it then? Haven’t they “failed”? When push comes to shove why do I keep going when those big dreams aren’t achieved and honestly may never be achieved? (Btw I don’t need pats on the back over this, that is besides the point. I’m approaching this with a shrewd mind and there’s a way to do that in a highly healthy way, I should be applauded not told “there there I’m sure you’ll be famous,” really it’s okay. I feel glad that I don’t NEED that to feel proud of my work. Yeah, sure it could be cool, but it’s not the priority for me like society encourages.) The truth is that internal motivations are more powerful. Everyone tells you to dream big. Well, I’m saying, maybe you can do it another way.

Maybe the joy of expressing yourself is equally valuable. Maybe self love is valuable. It’s not all about saving the world or making a million, which will look great to other people, right? What about what’s deep inside of you?

Is your soul valuable?

I’m taking a stand for your right to shine, to express, to let your soul and who you really are pour out of you. Maybe no one will read you, hear you, or maybe just a few will. That doesn’t mean the process was not worth it.

In fact you are your most important audience. Make something beautiful and fulfilling for yourself. Love yourself. Breathe life into your world ❤️ You matter.

I’ve…stopped caring. About things that hurt me or made me feel small or like I needed to prove myself or overly explain.

There have been these things that kept me circling in stress and anxiety in the past. Often now I think of this or that thing that used to be so triggering and I think, “I don’t care.” And I am glad. Because it’s better not to exhaust yourself on every little thing, when you need to care about yourself, your priorities, and the people and things that really matter.
I’m picking my battles, so to speak. I don’t have to care about everything to be a good person. I don’t have to make sure everyone is on the same page as me. I don’t have to right every wrong. I don’t have to think through responses to things that have happened or will happen. I don’t have to keep it all close to my heart if it’s not my bullshit. I’m done.

When it matters, it matters. When it doesn’t, I don’t care. I don’t care. I don’t have to care.
Timing is everything, and when it is important to deal with, I will know.

And I am free to care about what I want to care about and not what some external force dumped on my doorstep. Nope. Don’t care.

You’re doing enough just by feeling your spirit, just by being in touch with your heart.

Everyone in my sphere wants to make a difference, do something great. You are.

Live your life purpose?

Just add compassion to the mix. Just add love. Just add presence and consciousness.

Things tend to unspool when you connect whatever is going on to these sorts of higher energies. You don’t have to banish the stuff you don’t like all by yourself. Just invite in the grace.
Believe it or not, just being present can change the world from wherever you are, whatever you do or don’t do. It’s enough. Don’t stress. Follow the heart and pull the thread.

Even if you feel crappy, underachieving, not there yet. It’s enough. Just listen.