It’s amazing how much my mind loves to think about what other people think. I know I’m not alone because my clients talk about it sometimes. It definitely crosses my mind, “What will they think of this?” It can be a nail biter sometimes even though I definitely don’t let it rule my life.
I wonder what you will think of this. I’ve decided to change a really big priority.
For the last several years I have promoted my forthcoming book Freedom Year. It’s gone through several name changes. I’ve been working on it for over 5 years. I’ve had many people help me with reading and giving feedback. I’ve shared the first 4 chapters and gotten people excited about it.
I love it. It has been an incredibly fulfilling and challenging project. To write it and edit it I literally had to edit the contents of how I feel about some of my most difficult years. I had to face my own self judgement, and forgive myself and others.
It’s to the point now where I feel like maybe I don’t even need to publish it. To be honest, I’m in a deep life transition so I’m not in a place to make a permanent decision on that book’s future right now. So my current answer is- I do not know exactly what is going on with Freedom Year or its timeline.
What is clear to me is that I should spend my daily “Creative Passion Time” focused deliberately on something else. (Even when I am hella busy, I create every day. It is what keeps me sane.)
The truth is that I’m not working on my book Freedom Year right now. I’m writing songs.
Song writing! It’s been a very exciting journey going on in a parallel fashion over many years, but since August I have been incredible focused and dedicated to learning guitar so I can write music to play as I sing my original songs.
Since August I have recorded over 250 versions of songs, and now have 4 original songs polished and ready to perform, as well as 2 covers. That is 6 total songs I can perform, and I’m aiming to hit 10 songs and then 20 songs very soon. With ten or twenty songs I will have plenty to choose from to perform shows live! That’s my goal.
It was hard for me to post this because I have felt judged before talking about the pace of my project Freedom Year. Because I am a coach for writers and creatives who want to make faster progress, there’s a little voice inside of me that says that if I don’t complete every goal I set in a timely fashion then everyone will think that I am a fraud.
But the truth is that I want to tell you that actually changing your goals is totally ok. As long as you really feel into it and believe it is right for you–especially when the point is to have FUN or express yourself or something like that and it’s not obligatory–then you know best deep down what to do. Don’t let fear of judgement keep your nose to the grindstone on a project when inspiration is whispering to do something else. The point is to be free, not to be trapped.
It’s a balance, and it’s tricky, because if you switch projects too too much then you’ll never get anything done. But I don’t think it’s right to stick to every goal you set when things change and they don’t feel like a priority anymore.
Do you have any thoughts? To change priorities or not is a complicated topic and I’d love to hear what you think. Do you have challenges with this? Comment and let me know
