The thing you want is hard to ask for or go for. It makes you feel wobbly.
And yet it is the best. It is so worth it.
Go for it.
When I was younger I told myself I wasn’t creative.
I didn’t know what made me special.
In fact, I had a sense that if people knew everything going inside me–all the fears, all the feelings, and all the thoughts–that they would see that I am not good enough.
Creativity was hard because it seemed easy to get wrong, whereas school had clear answers I could memorize and get right.
For years I struggled with a desire to sing, to write, to dance.
In fact for a long time I convinced myself that none of those things were “me” or something I could do.
I feared doing anything that would make me look bad. Someone would stop being my friend, I would fail, I would be shunned, etc.
I didn’t really accept myself and by the time I was out of college I started to be more aware of this.
Still, despite therapy and working on myself, I kept seeing other people mirror this message to me that I was not enough, and I was disappointing them.
I felt awful and blamed myself.
But luckily, my path led me to begin writing every day.
Writing started showing me the feelings and thoughts I was avoiding.
And that included dreams I wasn’t listening to.
Gradually I changed my whole life. Since then I have professionally recorded my own original song. I followed my desire to move to Japan, met my fiancé and got engaged. I get paid to write and teach others how to do so for their book or business.
I went from being not creative, to having ten creative outlets.
Going from A to Z started as being vulnerable—one step at a time, one moment at a time, one interaction at a time.
It’s vulnerable to try. It’s vulnerable to even want to try. But it’s the best thing you’ll do in your life.
Don’t let your environment teach you what is possible. Keep trying something new.
I can tell you getting your dream is vulnerable, too. But worth it. So worth it.
Give yourself freedom to be WEIRD and MESSY–and just try.
Are you strong enough to be vulnerable?
