Sofia Wren’s Journal: Birthday New Moon

When I started writing this post, I will admit…I got a little down.

There is something about birthdays that haven’t quite hooked me. Maybe it’s the summer season–when other people were in school with their friends, I usually was off on Martha’s Vineyard. 

This small unique island is my birth place and the home of many in my wonderful quirky family.

I just returned from a lovely trip there, but I have to admit coming back is a bit of a wavering point before my birthday.

Leo’s are supposed to be loud, dramatic and want attention on them all the time. It may be more true now than it ever was as a shy youth.

It’s funny because I’ve never considered myself outgoing.

I’ve always liked blogging, and sharing my words but honestly? To me it’s part therapy, part seeking connection, and part carving a world for others to feel accepted and make smarter choices than I have.

At times I refer to myself as a “humble leo.”  I’m not afraid to admit my mistakes, or at least I do anyway, same with the low points.

I make things look easy that honestly have kept me up at night, heart pounding, or tightened my neck muscles into cords.

This is my 26th birthday, and I’ve decided I’m on track because there is nothing I regret not doing right now–I am living life right, stepping into the darkness with my intuition, knowledge and as much courage as I can muster at any time.

No one is exactly like me, and that’s a blessing as well as a challenge.

It takes a lot for me to do everything I do here, to tell my stories, in essence to bare my soul. I put effort into each and every tweet and post and facebook share.

I honestly believe it’s my way of making the world better–by being myself to encourage others to share their hearts, too.

I’ve hit a quarter century. In the last year I’ve changed so much, I can’t even describe. 

It scares me. Coming out of hiding for real, this is it. I’m never going back, and that scares me, too. This is the death that occurs this year.

Fear of success is no laughing matter. It’s real. You and me both have every right to feel this way.

But I say words today to lay the past of smallness to rest. To let the things that don’t serve me to continue to trickle away and die.

I move with new limbs, and shake free of old webs.

I meet myself today as I am and as I will be, no longer a child. Twenty six–I’m stepping into my late twenties.

I feel older. I feel responsible for my own life, and I can’t blame it on anyone else. Every time my ego steps in, I know it’s my own fault for the negative attitude.

I know that I must surrender the separation I create between myself and others, between myself and Spirit. Faith, even in my own unique shape and for my nontraditional ways, keeps me going.

Old habits die hard. But I know that when we work inside, everything changes.

And so Act I closes at the first quarter of the book, and I begin the plot’s real ascent.

I step out of the confusion I so have loved to wallow in, and I step into clarity– knowing myself, knowing my purpose, knowing my path and the ways in which I love to climb.

Hello 26.

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I’m writing this the night before my big day– 8.8

I think I’m taking this too seriously, and certainly need to celebrate, and so I will share pictures of my latest vacation, which was wonderful and very grown up.

My old soul grew to love the boredom and the pesky lack of cell service or internet access.

Lobster date!

I ate in Menemsha on Martha’s Vineyard, a few days before Obama visited a place eerily close to my family.(I think Obama may be stalking me so I had to leave early.)

I cried all over the beach. Just kidding, I visited my childhood beach and it rained slowly as I admired the rocks.

We saw many places which my guy says are “So beautiful it’s stupid.”

I coveted this silk and felt artpiece by Heather Hall at her gorgeous art opening.

It’s stupid beautiful and I was afraid I’d snag the delicate cloth. But it was cool to look at.

I helped my aunt transport her gorgeous arrangements, a blessing to the first of my generation to tie the knot.

Which leads me back to tears and celebration–sometimes people mark intense change and transformation with tears. I am such a one.

It’s a strange feeling of elation and giddiness and sadness and acceptance that time is going, new things are coming and the past is past.

As I get older so does everyone I love. But I hope that as I change so will I too be able to help others with the changes they desire.

I know I am on the right track. I know enough to know I have come far and there are paths I will not choose to wander into again.

Goodbye 25.

Btw on the way home I appreciated a miracle of synchronicity:

 I had done some meditating to connect with abundance on the car ride down, and look who joined us to dinner~~~ Ganesha, auspicious & abundant Hindu god, magician, master of manifestation and the clearing of obstacles. Felt perfect.

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